HERE WE GO AGAIN!!!!

After being with my so called "boyfriend" for 10 months, I have been dumped.  I'm sure some slut came into the picture and he is now with her.  Well, good luck.  He won't have you long.  After 3 marriages, I'm sure you won't be the last.  He never treated me right.  Never a compliment, never even said he cared about me.  That should have been my first clue.  I just thought maybe he was one of those guys who never said stuff like that.  He never let me meet his family and treated me like he was embarrassed of me when we went out.  So why am I hurt by his dumping me?  Because, I thought I could change him and make him fall in love with me.  I guess I am destined for loneliness.  I am 44 and he is 50.  See, then never change no matter how old they are.  All men are bastards, and they can't keep their dicks in their pants.  Fuck you all. 

Crap...

7 months into my latest relationship, I think it's over.  I have never had any luck with men.  I don't know if I just pick the wrong ones, or what.  I have always treated my men like kings and I got the shaft.  Well, if this is the end, I am done.  No more relationships for me.  I've had it.  I said that before this one, but, I mean it this time.  I will die a single woman.  My heart is hurt and my stomach is in knots.  I am lost.  Why can't I keep a man? 

My Birthday April 3, 2011

     So, today is my 44th Birthday.  I actually feel pretty good, despite all the stress I am going through.  Just moving and then having to trade in my 1994 Red & Black Chevy Silverado 4x4.  She had 244,771.3 miles on her.  I cried like a baby letting her go.  But, now I have a really nice car that I love!  A 2007 Pontiac G6.  :) 

     My love life...who knows.  I have a man that I really love, but, he seems he is embarrassed to be with me.  I don't understand.  It seems as though I'm having an affair or something and I hate it.  He had been married 3 times and I think he is hesitant to letting me into his life because maybe he feels that I am going to do to him what the rest of his women have done.  But, I won't.  I just want him to let me in.  I know in his strange way he loves me.  That is a given.  But, it's weird. 

    My Brother, who is 46, is fighting stage 4 cancer.  He is not doing well at all.  I haven't even talked to him and I feel really bad about that.  We haven't been close since we were little and our lives took two different directions and haven't been able to catch back up with him.  I love him, dearly, I just don't know him.  If that makes any sense at all.  

     Right now my Cleveland Indians are playing.  The rain is coming down, it started out sunny today.  The had a triple play and the score in the 5th inning is 1-0 Chicago White SUX.  Even though, Omar Vizquel is on their team, he will ALWAYS belong to the Cleveland Indians!!!!  And, it will ALWAYS be called Jacob's Field!  :)

COMPLETLY MOVED!

Ha!  So, I finally got moved into my new house and I LOVE it!!!!  I don't think I have ever said that in my life...that I LOVED the place I moved to!  I had to use all my tax money to buy a new washer, dryer, stove and a fridge!  But, I have all new appliances and it's awesome!  After being without for 3 weeks really sucked.  I had to wash my clothes in the tub and hang them up to dry. 

Moving is such a pain in the ass!

So, after 3 years of living above the neighbors from hell, I finally got a cute little 2 bedroom house!  No neighbors banging doors, cigarette smoke leeching up from below, no shouting, screaming or being woke up in the middle of the night by some random banging noise...God only knows!  I will miss my neighbors, though, the ones who lived in the houses around me.  On to the fun part!!!  I had help by my friend to move most of my big stuff, and single handedly moved all the rest of the stuff.  Up and down stairs, carrying heavy boxes and bags or whatever the fates threw at me.  Then, after about the 4th day of this crap, I got a horrendous headache.  Went home and tried to recover.  Went back to the house later on the next day, because I had to get the moving done, and ended up sicker than hell!  I thought I smelled gas outside the house...so, obviously, there was a gas leak.  Hopefully, the problem was fixed.  I still have to go back for one last load.  This I am doing tomorrow.  :)  I will be done and that will be that!  I am excited because in my new place, I have to buy all new appliances!  Never had all new stuff before.